To me, there is nothing more disappointing than really believing that something will go well, and have it go tragically on its ear.
That might be a tad dramatic.
I had a bad day at Summer School yesterday. So, I decided that today would be better. I would not let people get to me, I would be in control of my feelings & emotions, and today would be better. This did not happen.
You see, I am a big believer that we control our mood. Happiness is a choice. I choose to not be crabby and to let the little things that don't matter roll off my back. But today, the universe appeared to be conspiring against me. If I allow my thoughts to go toward the general direction of My Morning, I get chest pains. Actual real chest pains. Not good.
When I left the school, I went directly to the gym to work out some of my frustration. Then, since that did not work, I came home and listened to my Self Hypnosis CD, hoping that it would help me relax. And it did. Until I made the mistake of thinking about it again, planning for my day tomorrow, etc. I'm angry again, my chest hurts, and I'm not happy about it.
The upside, I suppose, is that if I listen to that CD every time I get worked up, maybe the permanent weight loss thing will get firmly rooted in my subconscious mind. In fact, I think I will go listen to it now.
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